Sheltie Mom

 

Where Andy is Not

I wake up in the morning and look beside my bed where Andy is not.

I come out of the bathroom and look where Andy is not.

I go on my walk without a leash in one hand where Andy is not.

I eat breakfast and look at the AC vent where Andy usually curls up behind the table, but Andy is not.

I watch our Netflix movie and look beside my chair where Andy is not.

I cook unobstructed from a little mouth scavenging for dropped morsels because Andy is not.

I come from my shower expecting to see Andy waiting by the closed door, but Andy is not.

Andy has been by my side for 8 years. 

How will I cope with his “notness?”

I know that time is a great healer, but O Lord, I think my heart will burst.